Friday 021207
Something i want to clarify before i start my post.
You might think i'm still clinging on or whatever, but truth is i'm not.
My previous post might oppose this statement hands down, but feelings change; and mine clearly changed overnight.
I guess it was my instincts that told me not to hold on to this pointless feeling much longer, so i'm not.
It'll take time to get over it completely, because im not you. Infact everyone needs time to get over someone; obviously not you. But time flies and in a snap i'll be over you, i swear.
You dont seem to care about anything, so why should i?
Heck, i dont even care right now.
Of course i'll still care for you as a friend because im not shallow enough to ditch an ex immediately after we break up, but i dont know about you.
You can ignore me, ditch me, fuck knows whatever else you can do to me but it wont be the end of the world . Infact it'll only show what kind of a person you are.
Dont misinteprete this little paragraph though, i'm not saying this as an attempt to shoot you down or slam you in public. It's just to let you know that i dont have any intention whatsoever to cling on to this failure of a relationship.
I've broken down in public and stuff just over this rubbish, but i realise now its kinda stupid and not worth it.
Infact all i want right now is just to be friends with you. If thats so hard, then i've really got nothing to say. We were friends last year and the beginning of this year, so what difference does it make for the coming one? Its a brand new year, a good time for fresh starts, so start over ah!
And a little lesson for all of you,
coming from my inner grandma,
Close friends and family are the only ones who'll truly love you and be there for you whenever you need them.
Okay, if you happen to find an ex who makes the perfect best friend,
in my case Natasha, then good for you.
But i must say, there're not many out there.
I'm lucky i only have to bear the burden of an 8 month relationship.
I know someone who has to bear one of a 7 YEAR relationship; and she's still not over it yet.
But its alright, when you're over the person, you'll feel it kinda stupid doing so much for them.
Had a heart to heart talk on the bus home with ade this evening.
She said some stuff that'd make you feel comforted, better even.
Some people might think, 'oh, coming from adeline ah. complain, complain',
but at a time like this i think i'd rather trust my friends, thanks.
Anyway, our conversation made me think..
I'd never treat anyone as a fling.
I'd never have the heart to hurt a person like that.
Just give me time to get over this relationship.
I promise i wont take too long
(:
Right, that about sums it up!
I'll post about today's events tomorrow morning.
Had a really fun time today, lots of things worth posting about.
P.S Nana, get well soon! Dont skip out on the doctor ;D
