I deleted my previous post because i realize, i don't really want you. I did some thinking after what r said and i realized, its not YOU that i want. Its the feeling of someone caring for me and looking after me, and if possible loving me, that i want. I just used you as an outlet to direct all that feelings to. That's why i tell people i'm not over you, but deep down maybe i already know i am. I just cling on to the idea of you because after all we're better off feeling hurt than empty. I think you know what i mean.
You weren't that fantastic to begin with either. I needed someone to take my mind of someone who hurt me and you were there. But if it makes you feel better, i've done that to everyone i was ever with. Bad habits die hard and i'm self-centered like that :/ I mean i've never really "liked" anyone that much before but maybe i will in the future. Besides i think you're really boring now. I don't see what i saw in the person that i once used to be interested in. Maybe i was hung up over who i thought you were in my head, but you're turning out to be a huge disappointment. Sorry, but you really are. Harsh words but trueee. So yeah, i'm done with this. I don't think we'll speak again and it doesn't affect me so if you get the hint you won't come and talk to me or msn or through text or whatever. Okay bye, peace out.
