Hey you. You're not the person i'm hung up on, neither are you the person whom i spent months moping about, but i realized how much i miss you. It just suddenly hit me how much it sucks to not be a part of your life, which doesn't have to be the case because we used to be close. Can't understand why i let myself drift apart from you. You're the only one who cared enough to bother doing sweet things for me, calling just to see what i was doing, telling me you loved me and not just for the sake of saying of it. I used to be so excited to wake up to your texts every morning, sleeping next to you, waking up in your cold cold room with the scent of your perfume on my shirt and telling myself you're the only person i wanted to spend the day with. Sometimes i hate myself for not being able to choose what's good for me instead of someone who basically treats me like shit. On fire. I need to stop being so superficial. And if only i could bring myself to commit instead of losing interest. But i also hate the fact that your mind is so impenetrable that i can't figure out what you're thinking. I don't know if i'm intuitive or if people are just plain obvious but i can usually guess what's on their minds but not yours. When you talk about other guys/girls, it makes me fucking jealous. I just choose not to make a big deal out of it. Now i don't know whether to like you or treat you as a friend. Whatever, i just want to see you. And i want my fucking hug. 459 ♥
Wow if you got this far, i apologize for boring the hell out of you.
