its a tear you can't repair

You wont get me crazy
choking up, sweaty hands
I wont stay up at night losing sleep,
I cant have it done to me




finally got my ass out of the house yesterday
it was refreshing meeting people after quite a long time
so basically my day consisted of waking up at 4,
facebooking, msn, multitasking between MJ videos
(thanks na, they were so captivating)
and Y!A, which is equally as addictive
loaded an episode of the L word but I couldn't even start on it
cause I was too absorbed by Michael Jackson

headed out to meet L, E and P around 8
slacked around, went for supper and back to P's place for the night
her room is like a hotel room and her bed's comfy as hell
knocked out cold for a good 2 hours at least
left for home around 6 in the morning and it was FREEZING outside
fucking freezing like winter
honestly, shivering all the way home isn't a good feeling
felt like I was cold turkey from drugs or something

anyway, I don't know if it was a freak moment
probably the weather messing with my head
or just plain old nostalgia,
but its times like these that I wish I still had You with me
whether in person or just a simple text asking me where I am
or what I'm doing, like you used to
it shocks me that I'm even thinking about it cause I would never
think it any other time
only cause I know myself it'll never happen
okay well its anybody's guess who I'm talking about really
I bet even you wouldn't even know I'm talking about you
so don't waste time trying you guys, lol

alright I'm off
got some things to do later
gonna go nap now
good afternoon?