Friday, February 6
Something special- colbie caillat
This entry isnt gonna be rainbows and sunshine so if youre not interested i suggest you bounce back to whatever you were doing before this.
I bet i already lost you to this point right, you ADD-ed people?
Haha, im just kidding.
Okay so to a special friend,
Maybe i hadn't noticed it before or maybe it just hit me after you mentioned it, though it was just an empty remark, that youre actually stronger than i give you credit for. It might've been nothing but im actually kinda awe-struck by you. If i were in your shoes, i'd be a damn wreck by now. Really, seriously, no doubt about it. Just look at my past and you get what i mean. So im really contemplating if i should stop cracking up over things that dont quite matter enough.
On the other hand, im given me way too much credit than i deserve. I'm always perceived as someone with no emotions, beyond me to cry, strong in a sense. Dont get me wrong, im not an angry person or whatever. More of the i-dont-give-a-fuck-about-you type, but thats only if you hurt me and there're very few people i trust to do that anyways. Truth is im very very, emphasis emphasis, vulnerable. And weak. Oh boy, weak. Tell me about it. Oh and i do cry, duh everyone cries.
I think my life is too much of an open book already. I used to think open book lives were more desirable cos its damn carefree. You dont keep secrets, dont hide things away from people. But then i look back and realise it sucks when people know so much about you that you dont know about them. I want to keep things personal, shared only among close friends. Emphasis on close cos i dont know what you consider a friend nowadays. __ is my inspiration. Im not gonna post on here like OOH IM IN LOVE WITH SO AND SO or THIS HUMAN IS DAMN HOT for half the world to see. Doesnt count for celebrities 'kay, cos i always find them hot. You get my point. So from now on noone knows whats going on in my life besides the people i want to be in it. Fair enough right?
Okay i think i've used my head long enough. Starting to draw blanks. I wish i could lock my posts :( Im not gonna lock my whole damn blog for a few posts, nuh-uh no way. Livejournal would be tempting if it wasnt so damn impractical for mua. A'ight eeenough. I'm gonna catch up on 90210.
Toodos.
