If you just realised what i just realised,
you'd tell me to wait for something better
I should've gone for something today.
But i missed it,
and now i need it badly.
The time i spend in school makes me feel really lousy.
Its like you're surrounded by a thousand people everyday,
but you still feel alone.
Noone's left who really understands you.
I dont think even my bestfriends get me?
I dont share my problems with anyone.
I dont even like to talk to people anymore.
Especially not the kind in school.
Shallow like nobody's business. Get a life.
Whats with people, whats with everyone?
Dont be so fake, can?
I swear as of tomorrow im not going for my routined school patrols anymore.
I swear.
I rather you shove a gun barrel down my throat and play russian roulette all you want.
Maybe i'll just accompany lyt to see whoever she wants to see.
Other than that, fuck off.
I dont want to be known as the fucking school loafer.
I dont feel like talking about it anyway.
Left school with lyt and her special cooperation.
Waited at the bus stop, alone, for 113.
First time this year i've waited alone.
I feel accomplished. Not.
Wasnt very happy though. Infact, i was quite pissed.
Just sat there sulking at my phone, replying people who texted me.
I didnt even want to look at anyone, so i didnt.
Got a scare at one point.
Like, super wrong timing please dont come down now.
But heck. I dont care, do you?
Moreover the bitch clique was standing right infront of me.
Had the urge to get up and punch them square in their faces, but no.
No rash behaviour this year.
Havent you learnt your lesson?
Soup spoon @ Raffles with j,nana and v,
then Marina.
It wasnt routined today.
It was topshop/man, zara woman/man, diva and McCafe
for us instead.
Mango smoothie tasted strangely nice.
Sat at Mccafe and talked about retarded stuff for hours.
Talked so much, time passed super fast.
Reminisced about Sharzzy's Dares two years back.
I swear i could've made a tv series out of it.
The videos are still on youtube but dont watch it.
I looked gross and it'll just give you an eyesore.
I keep worrying about how, one day, even they might be gone.
Off with their own friends and lives.
They cant be there for you forever, you know.
Not with their lives just beginning and me still stuck in secondary school.
When i was younger, i used to think being in sec school was something great.
Now i think its just full of childish assholes who behave like nothing more than nursery kids.
I think i'll cry.
Alot.
I feel like appearing offline.
Should I?
Delete friendster, delete everything.
Yea. Right. I wouldnt bare to.
Nothing makes me happy.
The internet is phoney centre.
Everyone can fake what they're feeling and what they're like.
As if being fake up close wasnt bad enough.
Nana thinks im one for the breakup songs.
Or rather breakup songs are so me.
Are they?
Personally, i feel bad they dont take effect on me.
Breakup? That was rather far back.
Try life is not that great songs. Suits me better.
Life is great when you get what you want,
so obviously you know what my problem is.
I never get what i want.
And then there are those who get everything.
MOTHERFUCKERS
Wah, kill them la. Kill them.
I hate couples who PDA infront of me.
Actually, i just hate couples for being couples.
Dont get me wrong.
Im pro-PDA when it comes to myself.
HA. Selfish as i always am.
The next time you're out with me and you see a couple holding hands(or anything more than that) walking in our direction, look at my face.
I remind myself of Scrooge in a town of singing townsfolk.
The kind that traps himself inside his home and goes 'shut up la' when the whole town's out to play.
Damn,
Haha.
I think i'll end.
Emozxzzxz.
