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Im not a happy person,
i dont smile or laugh because i mean it,
i do it so i dont look dead;
dont mistake me for being happy and treat me like it,
cos it only makes things worse
Had a major argument with my dad just now.
I dont get it. They say disrespecting your parents is the biggest sin, but what do you do when he is the most arrogant, shit talking person around?
Its not fair to get karma for retaliating, especially when its natural.
Karma's something i've been getting alot of lately; more than i recall doing any wrong for. Not fair. Not fucking fair.
Im on the losing end of a major breakdown.
I want my life back ):
Anyway, been heading over to j's alot lately.
Met up with ade and j at kovan ytd. Was looking forward to it really badly as school was rather bad. Depressing, in other words. School's always bad, nothing new. But somehow this week was killer. I almost cried.
Plus everything that moves or doesnt, seems to hate me.
Came home past 11pm last night and bats flew into me. Like get a life, you're not supposed to fly into human beings. My legs cramp up when im at dangerous areas like the top of the stairs or crossing the road, this super kpoh lady keeps peering at me; feel like slapping her, AND yeah i attacked myself with a screwdriver on accident.
I want an outing with v,nana,j,ade and everyone close to me together.
It'd be the most memorable day of my life, i swear.
The other most memorable day of my life exists only in my head.
Spilt my sec one home econs secret to both of them.
Mashed potato with m&ms. Fucking gross. I swear i rmb my potatoes turning blue and red.
Even mrs nair was like 'what is that?!'. Im hopeless at cooking la.
I cant even heat wings. I just stared at the wings in the packet when j asked me to heat them.
I have this phobia of stoves, cos i burnt myself on one each home econs lesson.
Hold the boiling pot in the hand with the oven mits on, that hand gets hot and i pass it to the unprotected hand. Damn smart shar, damn smart.
Watched a few lovey dovey cutscenes in DMC, on the xbox. They're all super turn off. Just when they get to the kiss, the camera zooms out or something deadly happens. How would you feel if you were trying to kiss a girl and someone's trying to kill her. TURNED. OFF. J gets turned off cos she's a super horny brute, but ade and i are sappy romantic ladies who want to see a happy ending. I was super normal on the outside but my head was going frantic like 'OI. what the hell is this?'. Sadness makes you a better actor. Its proven, by me.
Its good friday tomorrow and i'll be meeting up with qd again, yay.
Found out there's a guy in j's class with the same name as.. yuck..
Shall not think about it. Its over.
Maths tuition in school saturday morning. Damn it. Remind me why i let my father sign me up for things again?
P.S denise chia and cheryl chiam are insane. especially the first one. tree-huggers beware.
